Everything from 10 quality traits all introverts have, 50 incredible travel experiences to have once in your life and even Learning a new language can slow aging has popped up and I've spent countless hours reading every other article that interests me at the bottom the one I decided to read first.
Funny thing is, the only reason I subscribed to lifehack is because of it's one article about avoiding procrastination techniques and well...clearly, it hasn't worked all too well.
You see, I've started college again. I either try to study or write during the evenings. I have work on Saturday. On Saturday nights I try to see my friends for a few hours. On Sunday I try to reboot, watch some mind numbing tv and catch up on sleep. But I still find myself lacking the hours, not getting work done and doing just about anything to put everything else off.
It's probably because instead of studying, I lie in bed either trying to sleep or surf the web/facebook. Instead of doing my morning exercise t get me through the day, I sit on my phone reading fanfiction. Instead of getting chores done before I start homework or prepping for the next day of college, I end up on the couch watching tv until I'm too tired or it's too late to get anything done.
Unlike some issues in life, I know the root of the problem.
It's common enough, but it's also extremely unhealthy and a horrible waste of time.
This issue, problem, whatever you may decide to call it is called procrastination.
It's haunted me most of my high school career and now here I am, second year college student and still falling into the lull of "there's time later/tomorrow/next week/next month/next year."
The sad thing is that this preoccupation of unnecessary things is something a lot of people go through every single day.
Unfortunately not everyone has that undeniable urge, drive or ambition to push through the trudge of work to get to their goals. And it's pretty sad.
It isn't a great flaw, not something like selfishness or arrogance. But it's all consuming, completely wrong -
Selfishness can be taken as ambition to the extreme, a need to claim something as yours even when it's lost and then do everything to get it back, damn the consequences-people-what have you.
Arrogance can be taken from the "fake it 'til you make it" mindset. When you push too hard and delude yourself into thinking that you're better, so much better, than everyone else without really having the skill or desire to actually be better.
Both of these start off with good intentions. Procrastination does not.
Procrastination is borne from laziness, a lack of urgency and the strange thought that something will just happen and all the time they have wasted would be worth it.
I've realized (not often enough) that all we really have in the world is time. It may be a man-made concept, but it's the truth.
We aren't entitled to the next day or the one after that, we're damn lucky to even get the hour or two that has passed. But procrastinating makes us think that we've got all the time in the world to put something off.
Speaking for myself, I've put off writing - a novel I've wanted to published, a story I've wanted to tell, all because I think I have so much time to do it. I'm young, pretty young anyway. If I want to be a bestselling author, the next Jane Austen or Oscar Wilde, I have decades to write that novel...
But what if I never do?
What if I wake up, dying, unable to even breath without assistance, barely able to remember my own name...what then?
I could be optimistic and say that I'd still push through, to my dying breath, I'd write. But that would be a lie.
As cliche as it is, I don't want to lie on my death bed with regrets.
I want to try - crashing and burning if I have to, just to say that I did.
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